Law enforcement's initial reaction to my 1991 disclosure was discouraging. I second-guessed myself, but tried to remember that there already were too many victims. Each of us had been sexually assaulted in different years, but all at the hands of the same perpetrator. The threat still posed to younger victims, and the perpetrator's leadership position at a state-funded institution, provided urgency.
I met with supportive investigators from the district attorney's office. I learned from those who worked with children and youths that Pennsylvania rigidly defines a perpetrator of child abuse, tying their hands even as it related to the younger victims.
It didn't take long to understand that the law does have winners and losers, and the shorter stick is most often drawn by the child victim.
In 1991, state law required civil actions to be filed before the victims reached age 20, and prosecution generally was required to begin within five years of the abuse.
Given the expired statute of limitations, law enforcement could not file criminal charges, and I was unable to file a civil suit, so stopping the cycle fell to younger children and their parents. However, the parents opted against working with investigators, some citing the trauma the children would endure. Others worried how jobs would be affected, given their employment at the same institution as the perpetrator.
Faced with such legal dead ends, I turned instead to personal healing.
Recently, however, a conversation with a fellow survivor, who had also run up against the expired statute of limitations, has had me revisiting my own experiences. She still lives, works, and raises children in the shadow of this community "nice guy" - the man who abused us. Even as she works to heal, she is relentless in doing her part to keep a watchful eye on her community's children.
Child sexual abuse has lifelong consequences. Survivors are committed to prevention, and they work to protect victimized children when laws, including arbitrary statutes of limitations, fall short.
In 2002, state law changed. Civil actions by child-abuse victims now can be filed until the victims' 30th birthday, and the criminal statute was extended until the victims turn 50. Legislation has been introduced to eliminate the criminal statute of limitations and to extend the civil one to age 50.
State Reps. Louise Bishop and Michael McGeehan, both Philadelphia Democrats, are among the leaders seeking reforms, including the enactment of a temporary, retroactive civil window - something few other states have passed.
This "window" would permit victims for whom the statute of limitations has expired to pursue civil action against their abusers within a designated two-year period. The idea is controversial, and it's an uphill battle, partially because policymakers and the public haven't understood that, before 2002, Pennsylvania's statutes of limitations on pursuing child abusers were extremely restrictive. As a consequence, perpetrators were free to pursue other victims. Some may well still be abusing children.
Like child sexual abuse itself, the debate on the civil-window legislation has been ugly, manipulative, and deeply wounding.
Opponents of the window cite it as unconstitutional and ripe for false claims. They suggest the only beneficiaries would be people who have been victimized by someone affiliated with the Catholic Church. Leaders in the state have used obscure procedural moves to deny debate on the issue, let alone allow votes.
Meanwhile, supporters routinely add window-related amendments to other child-protection bills, jeopardizing those compelling pieces of legislation.
Throughout this back-and-forth, many survivors, including me, have stayed silent.
Lately, however, I have been reminded that the silence of others didn't serve me well as a victimized child.
So now I'm joining the chorus of survivors who are urging Pennsylvania lawmakers to stop stalling on statute-of-limitation reform. Don't hold these measures or other equally important child-protection bills hostage in committee or on the House calendar. The benefits and challenges of child-protection legislation, including that related to the civil window, deserve to be publicly debated by state lawmakers, followed by an up-or-down vote.
Realizing meaningful and sustained change to prevent and respond to child abuse requires the best interests of children - not political gamesmanship - to be Harrisburg's priority.
Cathleen Palm is a statewide child advocate and publisher of The Advocates' Agenda. E-mail her at firstname.lastname@example.org.